Welcome to The Wiccan Christian. Iām sure there are a lot of people who may wonder, āWhat exactly does that mean?ā Well, I guess if there is a such thing, thatās what I am. Hi, my name is Cindy. I have started this blog to be more like a diary; with personal thoughts, quotes, biblical references, spiritual ideas, basically things Iāve come across in time, either by my own mind or the mind of another that has just stuck with me. I wonāt say this blog will be organized as I am not an organizer. But I want to share my experiences with people in hopes that maybe someone will understand and actually relate to a few stories. Ive had a lot of experiences in my life that I feel I need to share. I think it removes fear and brings understanding. I sufferā¦.okay, I wonāt say āsufferāā¦that sounds soā¦.empty, like there was never anything good in my life. Not the case at all. Iāve had some very wonderful experiences in life. But I too carry scars that may or may not completely heal. Iāve been hurt in the worst way I think a person can be hurt. Nevertheless, I am a survivor. Welcome to my blog. And thank you for stopping by.
I was so tired last night when I wrote my last post, just before I went to bed, that somehow I accidentally put a copy of my therapy receipt into the post š«¢. I donāt know how that happened, but I donāt care at this point either. I have no money for people to steal. I had a hard enough time paying that $12 bill yāall saw š. And I canāt dwell on it for too long, otherwise it will be on my mind all day with worrying and what have ya. I just gotta let it go and move on.
With that being said I want to wish everybody a great morning. I have therapy in a half hour, then I need to move on with the rest of my day.
Iāve had a hard time sleeping the past three nights. My mind wonāt stop thinking. That is/was one of the reasons I took medical cannabis. But I havenāt had any in about a week. Iāve kind of lost interest in it. It wasnāt working as well as it did when I first started it four (4) years ago.
My therapist warned me Iād probably have a hard time sleeping without it now for a while. She was right.
I decided to stop because Iāve been tired of being broke as soon as I get paid.
I also quit drinking wine. Iāll admit I was a wine drinker for about three (3) years. Again, this routine got old. So Iāve cut that out too. Iāve probably put my body out of wack doing this. But time has a habit of making many things better.
I do find it interesting that I relapsed on the methamphetamine after I quit the cannabis and the wine. But I have determined that I really donāt like or need it like I imagined I did. I actually got bored with it quite quickly. So I havenāt really had any intense cravings I thought I would.
Iāve been going to online NA meetings lately. Mostly because I like to isolate, and my therapist, as well as my family tell me to get out of the house and get busy doing something. I was quite surprised to find a list of online NA meetings. And it was an exceptionally long list; The top of every hour of every day. As a matter of fact I will probably check one out when Iām done with this.
Also with my families encouragement Iāve decided Iām going to make a flower garden outside my apartment. A friend of mine gave me a three tiered plant holder, so I know Iāll use that. The only trick Iām going to have to deal with is the rubbish and rocks Iāve got to get through to even plant a garden. My first available, nice weekend, Iām going to work on it. Or try anyway. My brother was able to get my shepherd hook through the rock, so that does sound promising.
My lack of appetite has been a concern to a few people. Not to me, but to my therapist and my daughter. I just do not have an appetite, except during the middle of the night. But I have stopped the overnight eating after I ate a bar of soap in my sleep! š I canāt help but wonder what prompted me to pick soap? I did call the specialist the next day to in form them of the incident. They decided I need to do another sleep study. I thought to myself, āHere we go again.
After the soap incident I started forcing myself to eat something during the day. This does seem to have helped. I havenāt been eating in the middle of the night much at all lately.
I had to make a really hard decision about work today. The client that I am currently working with likes to sleep till noon or 1pm. This makes it really difficult to do my job. She has three (3) dogsā¦.well, had I should say. Two of them just recently went to an adoption program.
I used to be a very early morning person when I smoked cigarettes. Cigarettes and morning coffee always tasted so yummy.
But Iāve got to end this post and hopefully get it posted before I have to go to the store.
Haha š¤£ that last sentence was funny to me.
I hope everybody has another excellent day! And I will post my email address again so people always know I welcome conversation.
What place in the world do you never want to visit? Why?
Everything Has Itās Gift
This photo was picked to remember and show support to our Military while they are busting their butts out there keeping us safe. People should be grateful and thankful for their service. Instead, our military gets booed by the democrats. The leftistās show no respect when every military person is simply doing their job. With all the tension currently in the world, you would think every person would be supporting the Military at 100%. And yeah, it is true that a soldier may not make it back. But each military person knows what theyāre signing up for, without fear.
With that being said, I wouldnāt want to travel to any place in the world. And for good reason(s) in which I already lightly explained. With all of the hostility in the current people these days, Iād be too afraid to travel. Iām already too afraid to travel.
So currently, I feel it is better to be safe than sorry, should you end up on enemy lines, and getting into the middle of the crossfire.
Bringing this back to the military: Show your support, not your hatred of Trump. We need to remember that our military is only taking orders, not making their own orders. They need your support and encouragement. Donāt doubt them for their choice of career, whether you agree with their choice or not.
Not everybody in this world has the bravery of a military man/woman. Be glad that youāre not being drafted. And thank them for signing up to protect you.
Describe a positive thing a family member has done for you.
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Hmmm š¤. My stall has nothing to do with having to think of something. I feel Iāve been blessed by family members in a number of ways.
The first thing that comes to mind though, is when my daughter and son-in-law invited me into their home to live when I first got clean from that evil drug. I lived with them for almost six (6) years. I was very grateful. I was really down low during that time. I was pretty much homelessā¦. Well, only when I stayed at the battered womenās shelter. Unfortunately I got caught with Maryjane while I was staying there and was told to pack my bags and leave.
Funny thing is I didnāt even have that much to pack up by the end of my stay. Most of my stuff had been stollen while I was away one day. I mean, the girl even took my big suitcase to fit all my stuff in.
The saddest part about it was staff sat in the bedroom with her while she packed and literally watched her walk away with all I owned. (She was asked to leave too. Canāt recall why).
But thatās a different story outside of the gratitude I had and have for my family.
I can think of several things Iāve been grateful for, and grateful for quite some time. Iām grateful for my friends, my job, my new studio, my cat, my caring employers, and but of course God should be #1 on the list. Now He has done plenty for me. And still does. My God is a great, great God.
I feel like the gal in the above picture. Iām normally NOT an idiot about this, but it appears I just canāt remember.
Iāve probably made five (5) websites in my 56 years of life. Yes, I like to throw my old age out there now because I can get discounts! Yay! At least thatās one thing to keep me smiling.
Anyway, back to the website building. I have been working on a new site forā¦.pretty much, almost twenty-four (24) hours with minimal breaks in between. And for some reason I just cannot make things work. Everything Iāve tried has already been published (yeah, I donāt waste my time). And nothing goes smoothly about it. But I honestly donāt know whatās floating out there in cyberspace of mine now.
I canāt understood why it is so difficult for me now. The only thing I can figure is the builders have been updated (I donāt know tech terminology for what Iām trying to say).
Bottom line, I think WordPress has made some changes since Iāve last had a website through that builder. š¤ oops, Iāll just say āthemā.
If I were to make a recommendation I would go with GoDaddy. Very, very simple. š¤I didnāt think if this before, but I might get kicked off here for mentioning the competition š¬.
Anyway, anybody is welcome to email me some simple site building tips Iām all ears. Again my email address is as follows:
Cyngsoul70@thewiccanchristian.blog
Thank you for your time and attention to my whining.
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