The Wiccan Christian

Hope, Healing and Happiness in Trauma Recovery

  • One Simple Thing 🤔 Not So Simple

    Describe one simple thing you do that brings joy to your life.

    My one simple thing is turning into a novel. lol Anyway, it’s my personal way of doing my daily morning meditation.

    My daily morning meditation consists of things I know people find …. Questionable. But I beat from a different drum:

    Here’s some of a list again, of things I do that I consider Wicca and I welcome any kind of constructive criticism about my beliefs, or whether it constitutes Wicca or Christian. I don’t claim to know it all from either types.

    I started studying New Age stuff around the same time I was with that man. He’s actually the one that got me curious. He asked me to watch tarot readings with him on YouTube (I don’t watch those anymore). But thats what got me started in buying my own cards (though I know a lot of readers believe they need to be gifted to you. Honey, I’m from the sticks in Minnesota…..It’s a majority Christian around here. I won’t be getting any gifts).

    Anyway, Do people remember when Paul the apostle wrote about testifying to everybody? He said things like: ….

    I think I’m just going to look up the verses and copy them on here. I think I can do that.(?) 🤔

    I’ll be back!

    Here it is:

    1 Corinthians 9:20–22.

    “To the Jews I became like a Jew, to win the Jews. To those under the law I became like one under the law… so as to win those under the law.

    To those not having the law I became like one not having the law… so as to win those not having the law.

    To the weak I became weak, to win the weak.

    I have become all things to all people so that by all possible means I might save some.”

    Maybe I don’t even want to debate about it, because people may tell me (even though it’s in the Bible), not to take it literal.

    Well, what other way is there to take it?

    And why do we take some things literal in the Bible and some things not?

    I also know that God does not give us beyond what we can bare. But with it He also provides a way out.

    chatGPT has an opinion on Paul:

    “I wasn’t saying he participated in sinful behavior. Rather, he was saying that he set aside his own preferences, customs, and rights when appropriate so he could relate to different people and communicate the message of Christ in a way they could understand.”

    I want to know what people think about this verse? I have my opinion, but I want to hear others.

    What sticks out best for me is when Paul says “I’ve become all things to all people so as to win them all.

    I do all this for the sake of the gospel, that I may share in its blessings. vs 23

    Being raised in a small country town I feel I was pretty isolated., We were Catholic and went to mass every Sunday. My father was very strict (among other things). We never really went anywhere. Anywhere that gave me any knowledge anyway.

    When I was dating that man I feel he isolated me from my friends and family. And when I think about it, I think he put a spell on me. I know he believes in that stuff. Anyway, he got me started questioning my faith.

    So #3 is I believe people can put spells on each other just with their words. The tongue can be very sharp, be careful what you say to people. Somewhere in the Bible it says gossip is just as bad as murdering someone. You are murdering their character. That’s my belief.

    None of this stuff is really new to me. I had special beliefs as a child. I see it now in hind site. And it seems now they have a name for it: BiPolar

    I also think I was born to do something different. I won’t say firecrackers and bottle rockets. I just know I’m supposed to be doing something on this earth before my time is gone. And maybe I’m already doing it. And actually, I already have been. All my life. I believe God gives you life missions. We’re not going to know our mission, though if we don’t keep God #1 in our life.

    My explanation of death: Its a journey to a new dimension. It’s better than being on this earth right now. What we’ve got going on with this earth right now always brings up what’s been predicted in the book of revelations last chapter in the Bible. And my personal belief is this world is going to end in an explosion. And it’s going to be a surprise. Like the master coming home from his trip early.

    There’s scripture that tells of this:

    One of the closest is Matthew 24:45–51:

    “Who then is the faithful and wise servant, whom the master has put in charge of his household… It will be good for that servant whose master finds him doing so when he returns.”

    But if the servant says, “My master is staying away a long time,” and begins to neglect his duties, the master will return unexpectedly.

    The world is going to end with some kind of explosion. That’s why you will never know when. Because it’s just going to happen.

    4. I believe in Karma and the idea of threefold. I never did before. I never experienced it before. But I experienced it on that terrible drug. I saw the spirit world, which is all around us. I saw demons and angels fighting for my soul. I saw them fighting over other souls as well.

    You see, now I know why God did not want Eve (or Adam) to eat from the tree of good and evil. Because then their eyes would be opened to the spiritual warfare going on around us. God does not want us to see what’s truly going on around us. Because if we saw it we would be petrified by fear. Then we wouldn’t be his warriors in Christ. We’d be too scared. We’d be frozen in fear.

    Anyway, that’s the spiritual warfare I’m talking about, and it was scary.

    I might have to do a part two (2) to finish this post. It was supposed to be simple. I still have so much to say about specific beliefs.

    Maybe I should just end this by answering the question 😂. First thing, a cup of coffee. It makes me happy 😃

  • This Is Pretty Close To My Last Post

    How do you know when it’s time to unplug? What do you do to make it happen?

    I feel this question goes along with another question I answered about religion.

    I need a lot of calm time in my life. I meditate a lot. It’s the only thing I have found that stops me from trying to predict the future in my head. Over and over. Yes, I can be a ruminator.

    Yes, I have bipolar disorder type 2. I’m more depressed than I am “manic”. I probably get manic twice a year. Especially in the spring/summer time. But it really only lasts a week. And I’ve been starting to identify beginning symptoms, so we can do something different before I go off the rails into mania. I’m not saying mania is bad, to a point. What’s makes it bad is the symptoms. Overspending #1 for me. When I start spending money that I can’t afford to spend, that’s usually my first indicator. So then we increase my Olanzapine 2.5 mg higher for the spring/summer.

    If we don’t catch the mania symptoms on time it’ll run its course, crash and burn. And people will be left picking up the pieces.

    Anyway, back to the point. I have chronic anxiety to go with the bipolar. My anxiety can be so bad at times all I can do is listen to meditation music, alone, to relax (well, Bobber’s invited all the time).

    I don’t feel people give incense a chance. I hear a lot of people gripe about the smell. When I first started using incense the aroma did seem a bit strong at first. But as I continue to burn it my nostrils get used to the smell and I find the smells are really relaxing. I love incense. I have five favorites: Dragons Blood, Lavender, Copal, Panto Salo and White Sage. I prefer the cones over the sticks. If you want to know what each scent is good for you can always go ahead and use chatGPT (yes-I’m addicted to her. She’s so smart lady).

    Sorry, I keep getting off topic. It is imperative that I get an adequate amount of alone time each day. Some people may call that selfish, but I am 56 years old. I have a right to be selfish for once. To take of myself.

    In saying that, I think it’s vital that each person takes a little time each day for yourself. Try sitting in silence for 5-10 minutes. Actually, take your shoes off and go find a tree to put your arms around with your feet touching the roots. Imagine a butterfly calmly swinging by you.

    I like to try to be a good visionary.

  • I Don’t Call What I Practice “Religion”

    Do you practice religion?

    I believe in God and the Bible. I believe everything Jesus said and taught. I believe Jesus died on the cross for my sins. And because of that, as long as I keep learning from my mistakes and change my course as needed, God will forgive me. God forgave me at the cross.

    I believe we were all meant to learn lessons in this world. In the next life we will be made perfect. I don’t believe God holds grudges. I believe he’s always waiting for us to turn our lives around. And He never gives up on us.

    I try to practice the words in 1 Corinthians 13 on a daily basis. That is what I try to live by. That is where I’ve set my standards. I try.

    I believe where two or more are gathered it’s a church. So, even if there’s only two or three of us doing a Bible study we are in church.

    I make alters for God. People may wonder what in the world would that be? Well, it depends on the occasion. Usually, it’s something I’m fasting or praying about.

    My alters usually consist of a candle, incense, a crystal sphere or two, depending on what my attention is on at the time. I put notes on the alter, sometimes things I want to get rid of in my life or something I want to bring into my life. Sometimes it’s something as simple as a letter to God of gratitude.

    I see God all around in nature. I hear Him in the trees. I walk barefoot in the grass. I feed the birds. I put my hands on trees for grounding and energy uplift. I pray, meditate and write.

    I listen to a lot of meditation music when I’m in my bedroom. Sometimes I do yoga.

    Sometimes I do absolutely nothing, but watch YouTube videos all day.

    Yeah, I can be a real bum.

  • Making Sure I Make Time For Myself

    How do you balance work and home life?

    I don’t work many hours because of my disability. I spend a lot of time at home in meditation. I listen to YouTube meditation music whenever I am home just to keep a calm environment for myself. That, plus my strip lights and my northern lights projector help keep me in a calm state. As well as the candles and incense. When people come to my house they do compliment me on my very relaxing atmosphere. One of my friends even stayed an hour after I went to bed just to sit in the calm environment.

    I spend a lot of time in online NA meetings now. I try to go to at least two meetings a day, and I did choose two meetings so far that I will attend on a regular basis.

    And, of course, I have Bobber to spend time with. And he has become very needy and demanding. I guess the honeymoon is over. But I still love ❤️ him.

    I will be watching my grandkids a few days in the month of July. That will keep me busy on Thursdays.

    To conclude, I balance life and home by putting myself first. I never used to do that. I always used to put others needs ahead of my own needs. Since my outpatient treatment in 2021 I have learned that if I don’t put myself first I’m going to end up with the same end result. And I didn’t and don’t want that. So I need a fair amount of time to myself to recharge. Other people’s energy can be draining on me. And I don’t mean that in a negative way. I just mean I am an empath. When I’m around people I can sense where they are at emotionally. I am constantly observing. And sometimes I tend to take on other people’s feelings as my own. I don’t think I’ve quite mastered the skill of letting others energy bounce off me. And Unfortunately, sometimes I still take others feelings home with me. That’s pretty much why I try to keep my home atmosphere so calm.

    I am also an introvert. So being out in a crowded place can be very challenging for me.

    I like the client I am working with right now, because (this may sound sad) it’s just her. She doesn’t get too much company, except me, and that makes my job a lot easier. I get nervous with more than two people around when I am at work. I don’t know why. Well, yes I do. I feel like people are judging my work when there are more than two people around. I freeze and can’t focus on any tasks I’m supposed to be doing.

    I’ll end at that. I Hope everyone is having a great day 🤗

  • Sacrifices? A lot. And Dang Proud If It.

    What sacrifices have you made in life?

    As of this day I own absolutely nothing. I have a car with a loan out on it. That’s all I own, or, I should say, borrowing. Other than the few things I have in the studio, and, of course, Bobber my cat.

    One of my biggest love languages is the giving of gifts. I’ve given everything I own away. I gave my house to my first ex husband (that house was technically mine).

    I also had 20 acres of land. I gave that to my daughter and son-in-law as a wedding gift. All they had to do was pay the back taxes. It couldn’t be transferred until the back taxes were paid. So they paid a couple thousand dollars for taxes. I would’ve paid them, I just didn’t have the money to do it. My second ex husband didn’t want to pay the taxes on it, but got angry at me for gifting the land to someone who was willing to pay the taxes. That didn’t make sense to me. The taxes were quite a few years behind and was about to be put on the auction list with the county.

    I got pregnant at age 17 and my beautiful baby girl was born a month before my 18th birthday. I quit being a wild child and settled down really quick. I “behaved” myself for many, many years. Until she left for college. Then my life took a different twist. I do not regret the sacrifices I made for my her. She, my grandkids and my son-in-law are the loves of my life ❤️ (and, of course, Bobber).

    I’m always buying people lunch, Something just moves me to do it. Or borrowing money out that I know I’ll never get back.

    Buying things for people when I’m out shopping, because I just happen to be thinking of them at the moment. Or, I’ll see something at the store I think a friend would like.

    The bottom line is I’m just a giver. I know what it’s like to want or need and not be able to afford it. I’d want somebody to help me if I was down and out.

    I’ve started giving my crystal spheres away to people whom are important in my life. Friends/family, even some acquaintances. I get a feeling that somebody needs something. Maybe they’re struggling with something. I’ll pick out a sphere for them based on the stone’s metaphysical properties and meanings. I don’t believe that crystals can cure a physical condition, but I do like to believe they offer spiritual properties and/or meaning.

    These are just a few examples of sacrifices I’ve made for the betterment of all involved. I love making people smile, and a gift always puts a smile on someone’s face. It does me 😊

  • Are Tarot Cards Really That Bad?

    It depends on your intentions. If you’re looking to use them for evil, then yes, I would say they are bad. But Carl Jung used them as a tool in his therapy sessions, as he believed tarot cards could read a person’s sub conscious mind. And that is what I believe tarot cards are good for.

    I can tell you that from personal experience. When I was on that two year meth binge I shuffled a lot of tarot cards for myself. I could read the cards really well back then and I could easily come up with stories in the pictures that depicted my internal thoughts, feelings and struggles under the surface.

    I’ve shuffled so many decks of tarot/oracle cards I’ve got carpal tunnel in my thumbs.

    When I try to read for other people I first cleanse the cards (clear out old energy) then I let them handle the cards by touching them, maybe shuffling and/or cutting the deck. Then I will place and read the cards for them. ChatGPT has been helpful too.

    I don’t believe tarot cards tell your future, because Energy is fluent, constantly moving and ever changing. As soon as you lay the cards down they’re no longer relevant. Thats how fast energy moves and changes.

    I personally do not see them as bad, but rather a good way to start a conversation. That’s been my experience reading for other people. They make good conversation starters.

    What does the Bible say about tarot reading? Nothing. But it uses the term divination in relation to fortune telling. Which yes, most people use tarot to fortune telling. That is totally different than what I use them for. I use them to probe people’s mind. That’s it.

    I am in complete agreement with Carl Jung.

  • Birds!

    I am so excited. I was sitting outside in an online NA meeting, on my stoop, and I finally got to witness a hummingbird at my feeder and Orioles at the Jelly feeder.

    That, on top of two (2) good online meetings already this morning is starting off as a good day for me. I even pulled the weeds out of the rocks in my area. I’m thinking about getting a packet of wildflowers and throwing them in there. If weeds can grow so can wildflowers.

    I absolutely love these kind of mornings: warm and sunny. Fortunately. I get the morning sunrise and evening sunset. In between those I’m in shade during the day.

    The meetings were really good. After my relapse I started going back to meetings. But it’s really nice that I can do it online through zoom. What’s even better, I found an awesome complete list of online NA meetings from all over the country. There’s a meeting every hour of every day. Now that is pretty great. They even have meetings all throughout the night. It’s an amazing list. If anybody wants the link send me an email at cyngsoul70@thewiccanchristian.blog and I will send you the link to the website.

    I hope everybody has an enjoyable Saturday.

  • I’m An Eagle, I Don’t Lead Or Follow.

    Are you a leader or a follower?

    I fly alone.

    Eagles don’t swarm in flocks. They are very independent and fly by themselves. They have their own way of doing things.

    Eagles are mostly solitary birds because of how they hunt, nest, and survive. Unlike birds such as geese or starlings that benefit from flying in groups, eagles are built for independence.

    Some main reasons eagles fly alone include: They are territorial, they hunt alone, their size and flying style. But pairs stick together.

    So, I am an eagle.

  • PE Therapy (Progressive Exposure Therapy)

    I started with a PE therapist about six (6) weeks ago in conjunction with my regular therapist. Today we had our first real session.

    It’s my understanding that PE therapy is fairly new. And they’ve had plenty of successes with it. My regular therapist referred me to her, because me and my regular therapist hit a plateau.

    I like the PE therapist as well as I like my original one. She shows a lot of empathy, and asks good questions to keep me talking about things. At least until one story started to roll into another. I told her we’ll have to share that story some other time.

    What you’re supposed to do is talk about your trauma over and over until you can recall it and talk about it with no emotion or reaction is left behind it.

    She asked me to record myself as I was telling the story, so I did. Now, one of my assignments for the week is to listen to my recording several times until I’ve exhausted my feelings behind it. Then we talk about it again next week.

    I feel like I have a lot of instances that were pretty traumatic while dating that man. I don’t even like to say his name. Anyway, because I have so many instances from child to adult, I feel like this is going to take a long time. But I’m grasping at straws here, because I’m starting to get lonely (a little) and have not dated anyone serious since that man. I just get triggered too easily with memories.

  • I’ve Got A Funny Short Story (maybe a little TMI)

    So, I quit smoking cigarettes in August 2023. I started drinking wine on my birthday 2023.

    I’m also menopausal, it started in 2023 as well.

    Lastly, I take what most people with bipolar call, the fat pill.

    Anyway, to make a long story as short as possible, I had four (4) weight gain excuses to talk myself into ordering a couple of bras. Mine just do not fit, that’s how much weight I’ve gained.

    I’m normally a 34C. When I ordered two bras from Kohl’s, I ordered 36C.

    I went to lunch the other day with a friend and when we were done eating we decided to go to Kohl’s. It excited me. Now I can try on a bra size 36C and see how close I was.

    Embarrassingly, the 36C was too small. 😩 Now that I was at the at store I decided to buy two correct size bras. I got two (without trying them on) and when I got home I did put one on. It fit perfect 🤩 I said to my friend when she called “Is this how comfortable a bra is supposed to be!??” I think I’ve been wearing the wrong size my own life! 😂