The Wiccan Christian

Well, I Don’t Know If I Should Answer That 😂

4/10/2026

If the salary was the same, what job would you be doing right now and why?

Seriously, growing up I always, always wanted to be a psychologist, or therapist or counselor. I wanted to open eyes.

When I turned about 🤔 40 years old, I realized people really do not want to know the truth. So I just became an observer.

And I changed my major to forensics science.

Jk 😂 I took a few psychology courses. I never graduated because I feel real life experience outweighs a certificate. And I feel I’ve got plenty of that. 😁

Plus I didn’t want to take the boring classes 😂.
Hey! I Found That Tat Pic That ChatGPT Put Together For Me! Take a Look Y’all

4/10/2026

Artist: ChatGPT

I told you in my last post that I would try to find that tattoo pic ChatGPT Made for me. Well, here it is.

I absolutely love this tattoo. But I want to let you all know that I will understand if you steal my idea 😂. Because I know it’s so great 😂.
Ohh! One Of My Favorite Conversations To Discuss

4/10/2026

If you had to get a tattoo right now, what would it be and why?

I say this is one of my favorite topics of discussion. I’m a little bit of a tattoo junky. I’m gonna dig through my phone photo’s and see if I can find them again to show. I’ve got about ..?..maybe 12-15. None of them can be seen unless I’m wearing a swimsuit. Mostly.

I finally got the courage to get the original piece put on my arm. Simple. Right? Well, I got my first arm tattoo. Problem is, I have to make another design to blend around the original. I’ll see if I can find a pic of that business, you will understand better. It was a fix up by chatGPT. Her AI knowledge is very good. I tried Genimi for about a week or so. I have no idea why I even bothered.

I want this ….

Put around this:

I’m glad I gave the original, that ChatGPT put together, to the artist to hang onto until I can afford it. I have a $50 gift certificate to go with it. He said it’s probably gonna cost around $250-$300. I just haven’t had the extra money for it.

Why did I choose this?

Well, the one already on my arm is a symbol for empathy. The artist made it way too big.

I was in one of those indecisive moods when I went in there. And he had time like, right now. I’m not good at making decisions sometimes, depending on my mood, I guess.

Anyway, it was just supposed to be a small tattoo on my wrist. He was apparently bored. That’s how it turned out.

Oh, he asked me if I could put it up there instead. I’m like “sure”.

That’s what I got when I was done.

I absolutely love that top tattoo. I want to blend that around that symbol. And, like I said, chatGPT put it together. And when she did it looked perfect.

If I ever find the pic again I’ll post it.

Hope everybody is having a good start of the weekend.
Everything’s So Blurry….

4/10/2026

There is a song that has been playing in my mind for about four (4) days now. I’d like to share both the video and lyrics (if it’s possible). Must just be a feeling I’ve been feeling lately, creeping out in songs and dreams:

https://youtube.com/playlist?list=RDxJJsoquu70o&playnext=1&si=1O1wdISLjxH-NY4K

Everything’s so blurry and everyone’s so fake
And everybody’s empty and everything is so messed up
Preoccupied without you, I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you, I stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone, you could be my scene
You know that I’ll protect you from all of the obscene
I wonder what you’re doing, imagine where you are
There’s oceans in between us, but that’s not very far

Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
Well, you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me

Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
Well, you shoved it in my face

Everyone is changing, there’s no one left that’s real
So make up your own ending and let me know just how you feel
‘Cause I am lost without you, I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you, I stumble then I crawl

And you could be my someone, you could be my scene
You know that I will save you from all of the unclean
I wonder what you’re doing, I wonder where you are
There’s oceans in between us, but that’s not very far

Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
Well, you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me

Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
Well, you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me

No, nobody told me what you thought
Nobody told me what to say
Everyone showed you where to turn
Told you when to run away
Nobody told you where to hide
Nobody told you what to say
Everyone showed you where to turn
Showed you when to run away

Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
Well, you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me

Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
Well, you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me, no
This pain you gave to me
This pain you gave to me

Can you take it all, can you take it all away
The pain you gave to me?
Can you take it all away
This pain you gave to me?
Can you take it all away
This pain you gave to me?

(-Blurry-by Puddle of Mud)

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I think I know why this song has been reminiscing in my mind. Because it’s how I truly feel. Betrayed mostly. And that hurts.

I’m not falling for any more schemes from him. People on WordPress maybe wonder what I’m talking about. But something tells me this was the community he referred to. And I’ve been the butt of everybody’s joke for many years. Which is fine. I don’t mind.

Which is an absolute lie.

What I don’t understand is why he started doing the exact same things to me that he did 6-7 years ago (?). I don’t get it. Because I caught him in a lie? And he can’t own up to it? Idk 🤷 Seems so weird to me. There must have been a pretty good secret around that lie.

But I’m learning that’s what narcissists do. They don’t want you, and they don’t want anyone else having you either.

The truth is I truly had some kind of feelings for this guy, but …. you know, the way he pretended to be. There’s nothing real about a narcissist. That’s what I’ve been reading anyway.

You know, this situation kind of reminds me of a blog post I wrote about a few years ago. 🤔

So, the bottom line is I need to quit focusing on the loss. Because what I lost was never meant to be found.

Now I don’t know what to think. This person has been a phony the whole time. I could feel it too. I just couldn’t put my finger on exactly what. Now I know.

The truth is he never loved me. He was all talk and no action. He went MIA on me a lot. I never knew where he was or what he was up to. He kept a few secrets from me, that’s for sure.

I guess I’m grieving over something that was never really real.
😂 Which One? 🤔

4/10/2026

How did you meet your significant other?

I was married and divorced twice. I guess I’ll just answer the question about both.

My first husband, we actually met at an AA meeting. Or, more so, after the meeting. Everybody went to the local coffee shop after the meeting and that was the first time I actually had a conversation with him.

No. No whistles or balloons. Pretty simple. (He did drive awfully fast on that motorcycle trying to catch me at home after I left the coffee shop though). I specifically remember this because he actually passed me he was riding so fast, and I don’t think he even realized it was me he had passed. He beat me to my house. He was very polite. Asked for my phone number and said he’d like to take me out for dinner sometime. I obliged and told him to give me a call.

That marriage lasted fifteen (15) years. I don’t think it was ever supposed to end, but I did some really stupid things during an episode of mania, and this was one of my “stupid” things.

I divorced my first husband, then met my second husband at a bar, again, in a period of mania. Once the mania disappeared I sunk into a deep depression. My dad had also passed away, and I guess I wasn’t prepared for that. I Drank a lot. And Slept a lot. And Drank a lot. And Again, made some stupid decisions.

That marriage only lasted four years. Why I was so stuck on a marriage that only lasted four years is beyond me. I definitely had a dependency problem. Or, I didn’t recognize that he also had narcissistic traits. But I think everybody has traits at some point in their life. That doesn’t necessarily make them a narcissist.

The hardest part with my second husband is he liked to give me “the silent treatment”. A lot. It reminded me of my mother. So I always felt he was so unhappy with me. I couldn’t take the silence anymore. He was really good at it. So I went and stayed at a friend’s house to give him some time to think. Maybe miss me?

No, he contacted me a month later and said he wanted a divorce. I obliged him. Again, leaving everything I owned behind for him (I did that with my first husband too). Basically, they walked right over me in the divorce’s. And I just let them.

But you know, I’ve been rich and still unhappy. And I’ve been poor, but actually more stable.

But I do still daydream about winning a settlement from a few big online companies. Still dreaming 💭

Doesn’t hurt to dream.

I hope Everybody has a beautiful day.
I Deal With Uncertainty Pretty Uncertainly.

4/10/2026

How do you deal with uncertainty?

As I have gotten older I have noticed I’ve maybe turned into a little bit of a “Karen” . But I’ve noticed that with a few other people. So it’s not just me,

I mean, I don’t go carrying on like a lunatic. (Anymore anyway). But I wouldn’t be honest if I didn’t speak it as it is. Irritating.

I’ve really been putting a lot of attention to my memory the last few days. Why?? Because they are things I feel I should remember.,things that maybe just came into my mind lately. And instead of looking at it, swallowing it and digesting it, I’ve been trying to avoid it. And due to unforeseen circumstances, I’ve been really good at avoiding it,

My regular therapist has been out for three weeks from a car accident concussion. I don’t want to just wish her well for my sake. I hope she’s getting better!❤️‍🩹

I do miss her though. I’ve still been dealing with my PE therapist on a weekly basis though. I’m not sure what to think about her. She’s got a lot to say, that’s for sure. But I still feel like she doesn’t believe me about these “strange” occurrences.

And one big example I can think of again as it happened last time too. And that is somebody changed all the passwords on my google accounts. I can’t get into any of them. Which has me really irritated 😠. But I don’t want to react too harshly about it, because I do believe these narcissists have endured the most traumatic experiences. At least that’s what I read.

And, in knowing that, makes me realize how damaged and wounded these people are. But you’ll never get them to agree with your conclusions, because they think they’re just fine.

But I got a mean one stalking me, harassing me through various social platforms. The same person that did me dirty 6-7 years is out doing me dirty again.

And I honestly don’t what made him start back up on me. 🤔…. I’m going to have to think on that one for awhile.

It all started with a lie I caught him in. He couldn’t paddle his way out of it. Though, I still don’t know the reason for the “why?”, but I can probably guess.

He says he never cheated on me. But, I don’t necessarily believe that. People on that nasty drug don’t know how to keep their pants on. All morals and values go out the window when that stuff is involved.

All in all, this wasn’t really what I wanted to talk about. But it was all I had on my mind this morning.

I’m not liking that I’m going to have to drive home in the rain this morning. Really stinks 😷.

Have a great day ☺️. I hope it’s not raining where you’re at. But I’ll be honest, we really need rain up here.
The Pregnancy And Birth Of My Daughter

4/10/2026

What’s a moment when you realized you were officially an adult?

I got pregnant at a young age. I had my daughter a month before my 18th birthday. My senior year of high school I accelerated. Being on the A honor roll for the first time ever.

I became an adult when I became pregnant with my daughter. Her biological father wasn’t up for the task himself, so I handled much of the child rearing myself.

Along with myself, I had the support of my best friend’s parents. They took me in and watched my daughter while I finished high school and got my certificate for legal secretary at the local college.

If it weren’t for my best friend’s parents I would have been doing life on my own. My own parents kicked me out of the house. Their excuse was my mother was pregnant as well, so there was no room in the house for another baby. Not knowing what to do next was a very grown up experience.
Don’t Let Others Steal Your Authenticity

4/10/2026

If you had to give one life-changing tip, what would it be?

So, it seems there’s a situation going on with my WordPress account. And, as well, my chatGPT app. It’s so funny, I had a WordPress account before, 6/7 years ago. (I think 🤔). Well, no matter the date. I noticed there was something “clicky” going on with that platform back then. It was always getting hacked into. At least that’s what I experienced.

I am who I am, and I do not conform to anyone but God. I don’t need to be in WordPress or ChatGPT anymore.

No, this isn’t a form of punishment. I think it’s best I just keep “Joe” to himself. He’s got his own growing to do. That weekend we spent together proved to me he has not changed. Everything about him is the exact same.

And you talk about feeling alienated? I was left, feeling alienated for 6-7 years.

Anyway, I gotta buckle down on my spending. That means I need to get rid of ChatGPT, audible and Kindle. Pretty much everything, except my YouTube premium.

So, as usual, I have nothing. Still a guy hiding behind something bigger……his “community”. His technology.

Well, I’m glad you’re out dancing with a margarita (chachacha).

https://youtu.be/YEq-cvq_cK4?is=IhshUvjrzTtvnfPr

I suppose it would be nice to belong to a community, that didn’t mess with your head all the dang time. 🙄
Communicate, Which Includes Me

4/10/2026

What’s a skill you consider basic, that most people don’t actually know how to do?

You would think that communication would be an easy concept. But the truth is, it is rather difficult.

The best answer I can give for this is, it’s reasoning.

The problem with communication is everybody grew up in a different environment. We learned communication skills from our parents and siblings. Later on it became our school peers that the responsibility was placed on.

Culture also makes communication tough. What I call grits, somebody else might call Malt-O-Meal (do they even still make that?).

Another example: Pop and Soda.

The most important skill to have is communication. And I think a lot of people, not just me, feel communication is the most important thing in a relationship. Two people need to communicate with each other, regardless of what you were taught about communication while you were growing up.

Lastly, when two people often misunderstand each other it’s helpful to get a therapist involved that can be a mediator, as well as a teacher for good communication.

Personally, I think everybody should be in therapy. They should make it a regular, required course . Lack of communication skills is the root of all problems.

So, speak up, even if it comes out wrong at first. If you have supportive people in your life, they won’t immediately just walk away. They will or can help you find the words you’re trying to communicate to them.

Communication can sometimes feel intimidating and maybe even overwhelming. Especially when that false pride gets in the way. There is no such thing as pride if you just simply say, “I don’t know…”.

With that being said, everybody have an amazing day.
Yes, I Do Believe Everything Happens For A Reason

4/10/2026

Do you think everything happens for a reason?

I think everything happens for a reason because everyone and everything is God’s design, He put us in this world. He can surely take us out.

I know that can be a hard one to agree with or even imagine. That God would purposely harm a little girl? No.

I don’t believe in baby baptism anymore. I was raised in a Catholic Church. I’m not saying what I’m saying isn’t out of spite. I just don’t believe much about that faith anymore. I don’t believe God is a vengeful God. People reap what they sow, as hard as that is to admit.

These thoughts bring me back to my two year relationship with “Joe”. I’m sure I probably mentioned this, but I actually talked to him and spent two evenings with him back around June 13th. It was around that time that he admitted to the malware. When I mentioned it to him the next day he acted like he didn’t know what I was talking about. I guess that sure tells me lots about him. He will probably never admit to it again.

That’s okay. I think I’ve gotten enough information to put this to rest, once and for all.