The Wiccan Christian

The Ability To Be My Authentic Self

4/10/2026

What does freedom mean to you?

The world is getting tougher and tougher to live in. Trying to keep up with all the drama going on with politics; republicans/democrats, woke, war, climate changes, etc. People are constantly putting on different hats depending on what the nature of their day consists of.

For example: I am a mother and grandmother and mother-in-law. I’m an employee, renter and friend. I am many things, and put on whatever hat is suitable for the moment and situation.

Before I go to work I have to mentally prepare. In this case I put on my work hat. As this is my main focus of the day.

When I spend time with my grandkids I mentally prepare and put on my grandma hat.

When I get back home from whatever I’ve done for the day I can finally take off whatever hat I’m wearing and just be me. Cindy. My authentic self.

I feel like being in the world is about how well you can perform. The expectations out there are big and expansive. Many expectations are placed on people to perform a certain way. And that determines your value.

I watch an awful lot of political things. Mostly about what Trump is up to. I think about all the different hats he has to wear on any given day.

When he meets with other world leaders he puts on another hat. The hat that depicts strength.

When Trump is dealing with the United States issues, he, again, puts on a different hat in order to deal with the issues in the US.

When I refer to hats, I’m really referring to a total change in personality and how to effectively relate with whoever or whatever you’re dealing with at that time.

Why do you think it’s so vitally important for people to have some time after work to just breathe. Unwind. Relax. They need time to decompress and switch hats. They are home now, maybe as a husband and/or father. They need time to decompress from work, take that hat off, and put on their dad hat and their spouse hat.

The world is constantly moving, nobody has time to just breathe, unless they make an effort to make time for themselves, which I feel is vitally important to lessen burnout in people.

I know from experience how easily a person can burn themselves out doing too much and not taking time for themselves.

I became a mother at a young age. I also believe I became a wife too young. I became employed at a very good job right after college. I then became a full time foster parent for troubled teenagers at the same time I was working full time, being a wife and being a mom. I was super woman. Until the rug got pulled out from under me and I was diagnosed with bipolar depression. My world I had worked so hard on fell apart.

I truly believe I was burning my candle on both ends, not taking any time for myself, and my body/mind rejected it. All the stress I was living with finally caused my disorder to come to the surface.

Stress causes psychological problems and disease. It’s a proven fact, that if you are predisposed to having a mental health condition it will show up under prolonged stress. And once it shows up it doesn’t just magically disappear.

That’s been my experience. Now, because of my mental health condition I am only capable of working part time. Even that can cause mental health symptoms at times. I do my best, and that’s all I can do.

I’ll end right here. Thanks for stopping by and I hope everyone has a great day.
Fruit Loops, Definitely #1 On My List

4/10/2026

List your top 5 favorite fruits.

Sorry, I couldn’t help myself 😂

Top 5 favorite fruits: Strawberries, bananas, raspberries, blueberries and Kiwi.

Although, I don’t really eat a lot of fruit. I don’t know why. Expense(?) maybe(?).

I like comfort foods; things that make me feel full and sleepy. There used to be a lot of foods on this list, but I really have not had an adequate appetite in years. It’s hard for me to shop for food, because I never feel hungry, so nothing ever looks good to me. I wander in the grocery stores, completely clueless.

I can tell you some things I have eaten, recently….. but then again I should maybe keep it to myself. I think people would consider me off of my rocker.

I have a bad habit of sleep eating. I’m not sure when it started, or even why, but I’ve been getting up in the middle of the night and eating, with no recollection of it until I see the evidence the next morning. And I’ve eaten some strange things: book pages, soap, cat food, a tub of chocolate frosting, the cake straight out of the box, muffin mix, again, straight out of the box. I could probably go on with this crazy list, but these are the things that have popped up recently. Sometimes I’ll wake up in the middle of eating, sometimes I’ll wake up the next morning and find the evidence.

I’ve had a sleep study done due to this strange behavior. The study indicated seizure activity in the middle of the night, while sleeping. Because of that finding I was sent to a specialist. They did an ambulatory study and didn’t find anything odd during the day. So, they want me to come back and do a complete overnight sleep study with them.

I’d say I’ve been sleeping poorly for about six (6) years now. I’m wondering if it has anything to do with no longer drinking milk as much as I used to. That’s the only thing in my diet that has changed.

I love milk 🥛 ❤️. I can drink a whole gallon in a day or two. But I cut it out of my diet when I lived with my family. I didn’t want to drink all their milk on them. And whenever I bought milk, they drank it on me! So, I’ve gotten into a habit of not drinking milk. Sometimes I’ll buy a gallon of it. But it never lasts past 1-2 nights. And the expense has gotten awful.

Anyway, I know I got off topic, but that’s just how I roll. I can only talk about fruit so much.

I hope everyone is having an amazing day!
Bobber Is Getting On My Nerves

4/10/2026

So, a friend of mine gave me this bright idea to let Bobber watch interactive cat videos on YouTube. The first time I turned it on the TV he almost broke the TV!

I thought to myself, ‘It’s a good thing I still have an old phone, I’ll let him watch them on that’.

Now, whenever I take my own phone out to use he thinks he needs to have his too. Otherwise, he pesters me on my phone.

So, I get his phone out and he tries to run off with it all the time. He grabs it with his teeth and tries to carry it off, then bites me when I try to take it away!

This cat is addicted!
Quit The Nicotine Vape

4/10/2026

What’s one small improvement you can make in your life?

That may not be small, but it’s an important one ☝️. I was in to the doctor about a few things a month or so ago and had a CT scan of my lungs. The diagnosis came back that I have moderate to severe emphysema. And honestly, I didn’t even notice it, until I started vaping the Mr Fog vape.

This particular vape tastes like a swisher sweet cigar and feels just as harsh as if I were actually smoking a cigar. I’ve noticed since I started on this vape that I have a harder time catching my breath and I have a constant sore throat from it. I wouldn’t recommend it to people and need to find a way to stop smoking nicotine vapes all together.

I have my medical marijuana certification and was smoking THC vapes, but I quit that right after receiving the CT scan report.

I have a follow up appointment with my doctor to discuss the CT scan results and, as well, hopefully I will get something for weight management.

I’ve gained 40 lbs in probably three (3) years (since I quit smoking cigarettes). I can’t stand how I feel with this extra weight. It could be a combination of things that caused the weight gain: menopause, quitting cigarettes, my medication and probably the wine drinking (that I no longer do). I’m hoping some weight will eventually come off now that I’m not drinking wine anymore.

But my biggest issue right now is the nicotine vape. I don’t want this emphysema getting worse. I have a friend the same age as me with the same issue and she can hardly breathe without an inhaler. I don’t want to get so bad that everybody can hear me breathing.

Most importantly, my daughter has been riding my ass for years about my smoking. I don’t want to cause her any extra reasons to worry.

If I just stop 🛑 now …..
My First Husband

4/10/2026

Share a story about someone who had a positive impact on your life.

I chose my first husband for this post, because even though we are no longer together because of my poor choices, I have some regrets over leaving him and demanding a divorce.

He was very good to my daughter and treated her as his own. Even today they have a very close relationship.

At the time I left I was going through a period of mania (I have a diagnosis of bipolar disorder). And one day I just woke up and threw my medication in the garbage and started exercising like a mad woman. I lost between 40-50 lbs just jogging, walking and working on the elliptical machine at the local fitness center.

After my daughter left for college I got empty nest syndrome and became very depressed and unsure of what to focus my life on now that my daughter was “gone”.

I ran into an old friend, and from there things just dominoed.

My first husband was a very patient man. He never yelled. But when he spoke you knew he meant business. Because he treated me so kindly it carried a very positive impression on my life. And even after I left he didn’t get angry, or even show any emotion at all.

One night he did ask me out for supper to talk. I was already seeing my second husband at the time, so even though we did meet there wasn’t much said, because of my current status. He did ask me about getting back together. But I was still on a mania high, so I said no.

Looking back I realize he treated me very well and was the kindest man that ever entered my life. So yes, I do have regrets. He was always encouraging, complimenting me whenever I accomplished some kind of task that I would typically be too afraid to try. He had confidence in me that I did not have in myself. He was always trying to encourage me to stretch beyond, what I thought, were my limitations.

We did continue a friendship, for my daughter’s sake, but ever since I messed up on that nasty drug, our friendship became estranged. We used to talk on a regular basis. Now we don’t talk at all. Not much anyway.

If I could do that part of my life over I would do it differently. But I can’t dwell on the could’ve/would’ve/should’ve. I don’t hang onto it. I’m just saying I would do things differently.
Just Keep Doing What I’ve Always Been Doing

4/10/2026

What is your career plan?

I work in the healthcare field, specifically a PCA. I have spent my entire life caring for other people in one way or another. I guess it’s just in my DNA.

My first “job” was taking care of my dying grandpa when I was about eight (8) years old. After my grandmother died I guess you could say he gave up on life. He loved her and missed her terribly. A lot of times I feel like he died of a broken heart. But in reality he died of lung cancer. He just gave up.

He came to live with us shortly after my grandmother passed. He was diagnosed not too long after. My mother put it on me to take care of his needs. So, that’s what I did. I bathed him, cleaned up after him, coerced him to eat, etc.

In return for me caring for him he gave me, what I called, a treasure chest. It was a tin container in which he kept a lock on. He gave me the treasure chest and the key for the lock. He told me that was all he had to give for his appreciation. I didn’t expect anything for caring for him. It just felt natural. But I accepted it at his prompting.

Being eight (8) years old a treasure chest is pretty exciting. I opened it up and it was full of Pennie’s. I felt like I had struck gold. Pennies at that age was a mighty big deal. My siblings were jealous. But nobody else wanted the responsibility, so I spent my treasure all on myself. I wish I still had that treasure chest. I don’t care about the money that was in it. I just wish I would’ve kept the chest.

That was my first “healthcare position”. And I’ve been taking care of people ever since.
A Tarot Reading From ChatGPT’s Perspective

4/10/2026
This reading has a strong emotional transition theme. With the overall energy being the Ace of Cups, the reading is centered around emotional renewal, healing, love, spiritual openness, or a new emotional chapter beginning.

Here’s how the cards flow together:
- Past — Four of Cups
  This often points to emotional withdrawal, disappointment, numbness, boredom, or being so focused on hurt or dissatisfaction that opportunities or support were overlooked. It can represent a period of isolation, apathy, grief, or emotionally “checking out.”
  You may have been stuck emotionally, unsure what you wanted, or unable to fully receive love or joy.
- Present — Three of Cups
  This is a shift outward. The energy becomes social, supportive, healing, and reconnective. It often represents friendship, community, celebration, emotional support, reconciliation, or learning to enjoy life again.
  After the emotional heaviness of the Four of Cups, this card suggests you’re currently re-entering connection — emotionally, socially, or spiritually. People around you may be helping you heal more than you realize.
- Future — Death
  Despite the scary name, this is one of the most transformative cards in tarot. It rarely predicts physical death. Instead, it represents endings, shedding old identities, major life transitions, and irreversible transformation.
  Something emotional is ending so something more authentic can begin. The Death card says the old emotional state cannot continue unchanged. A chapter is closing.
Together, the story looks like this:

You moved from emotional stagnation or disconnection (4 of Cups), into a period of healing through connection and emotional support (3 of Cups), and you are now approaching a deep transformation (Death) that clears away an old emotional cycle completely.

Because the overall energy is the Ace of Cups, the transformation is not empty or destructive — it’s making room for a new emotional beginning. This could involve:
- a new relationship,
- emotional healing,
- renewed spirituality,
- forgiveness,
- deeper self-love,
- or finally opening your heart after a painful period.
The reading feels less like “loss” and more like emotional rebirth. The Ace of Cups with Death especially often signals:

“You cannot carry the old emotional patterns into the next chapter.”

This really sums up what’s going on in my life. A very good reading.
Zack Williams, Crowder & Matt Maher

4/10/2026

What was the last live performance you saw?

I can’t remember which venue it was at. It was a venue I had never been to before. But the concert was great! I enjoyed every bit of it.

What really surprised me was that they were selling liquor at a Christian concert. Not saying that’s bad or anything, I was just surprised.

Now, when I saw for King and Country that was an excellent performance. I love all their loud drumming, and with the lights and music it really made for a great show. I’ve been to for King and Country twice. They came as an opening act the first time. I barely knew who they were the first time. But the second time was up in Duluth. That was a good show. I’ll say it again, I love their drumming. They put a great spin on Little Drummer Boy.

I’ve mostly just been to country and Christian. That’s what I enjoy most.
Something Always Attracts Me To The Time

4/10/2026

For the last two evenings (maybe more), I’ve woken up at 12:30am, thinking my Alexa clock said 4 o’clock. I go to use the restroom, and when I come out I look at the clock on the stove, it says 12:30am. This has happened on at least two occasions, maybe even more. But this time it happened two (2) nights in a row.

I don’t know what attracts me to pay so much attention to time. I feel like numbers tell us something and in time is where I notice the numbers the most.

I don’t even know if this is explainable. But I believe numbers carry messages with them. But for me, I mainly see numbers in the time. Numbers like 2:22, 3:33, 1:11, 11:11, etc. 12:12… I could go on, but I think people get my drift.

I have an angel numbers book I usually look into. Otherwise I google or ChatGPT to get my answers to the meanings of specific numbers.

My last blog you probably saw a lot of numbers as I screenshotted the double digit times often, as I saw them. I won’t lie overload this site with various angel numbers. But I have a great desire to pray whenever I see them.
Love Never Fails

4/10/2026

Do you have a quote you live your life by or think of often?

This may be repetitious, but this is the best instruction, in my opinion, on how we are to show and demonstrate love to mankind:

1 Corinthians 13 from the NIV:

If I speak in tongues of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, l am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast, but do not have love, I gain nothing.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears. When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man. I put the ways of childhood behind me. For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face.

Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

Peace ☮️ and Amen 🙏