The Wiccan Christian

I don’t work many hours because of my disability. I spend a lot of time at home in meditation. I listen to YouTube meditation music whenever I am home just to keep a calm environment for myself. That, plus my strip lights and my northern lights projector help keep me in a calm state. As well as the candles and incense. When people come to my house they do compliment me on my very relaxing atmosphere. One of my friends even stayed an hour after I went to bed just to sit in the calm environment.

I spend a lot of time in online NA meetings now. I try to go to at least two meetings a day, and I did choose two meetings so far that I will attend on a regular basis.

And, of course, I have Bobber to spend time with. And he has become very needy and demanding. I guess the honeymoon is over. But I still love ❤️ him.

I will be watching my grandkids a few days in the month of July. That will keep me busy on Thursdays.

To conclude, I balance life and home by putting myself first. I never used to do that. I always used to put others needs ahead of my own needs. Since my outpatient treatment in 2021 I have learned that if I don’t put myself first I’m going to end up with the same end result. And I didn’t and don’t want that. So I need a fair amount of time to myself to recharge. Other people’s energy can be draining on me. And I don’t mean that in a negative way. I just mean I am an empath. When I’m around people I can sense where they are at emotionally. I am constantly observing. And sometimes I tend to take on other people’s feelings as my own. I don’t think I’ve quite mastered the skill of letting others energy bounce off me. And Unfortunately, sometimes I still take others feelings home with me. That’s pretty much why I try to keep my home atmosphere so calm.

I am also an introvert. So being out in a crowded place can be very challenging for me.

I like the client I am working with right now, because (this may sound sad) it’s just her. She doesn’t get too much company, except me, and that makes my job a lot easier. I get nervous with more than two people around when I am at work. I don’t know why. Well, yes I do. I feel like people are judging my work when there are more than two people around. I freeze and can’t focus on any tasks I’m supposed to be doing.

I’ll end at that. I Hope everyone is having a great day 🤗