Welcome to The Wiccan Christian. I’m sure there are a lot of people who may wonder, “What exactly does that mean?” Well, I guess if there is a such thing, that’s what I am. Hi, my name is Cindy. I have started this blog to be more like a diary; with personal thoughts, quotes, biblical references, spiritual ideas, basically things I’ve come across in time, either by my own mind or the mind of another that has just stuck with me. I won’t say this blog will be organized as I am not an organizer. But I want to share my experiences with people in hopes that maybe someone will understand and actually relate to a few stories. Ive had a lot of experiences in my life that I feel I need to share. I think it removes fear and brings understanding. I suffer….okay, I won’t say “suffer”…that sounds so….empty, like there was never anything good in my life. Not the case at all. I’ve had some very wonderful experiences in life. But I too carry scars that may or may not completely heal. I’ve been hurt in the worst way I think a person can be hurt. Nevertheless, I am a survivor. Welcome to my blog. And thank you for stopping by.
I don’t know that Kohl’s is a brand, but it seems since I’ve quit smoking cigarettes Kohl’s jeans are what fit.
There are a lot of things I like about Victoria’s Secret, but mainly their bras and perfume. Heavenly to be specific. But I’ve been thinking about switching to another scent. Victoria’s Secret has some great scents.
Lastly, I am a wellness advocate for doTERRA essential oils. They sell more than just essential oils. They also carry products for face, body and hair. I love this brand and very much enjoy making DIY’s with doTERRA oils.
List the people you admire and look to for advice…
I hate to say this, but I suffer from complex PTSD. I say suffer, because it truly is suffering. I don’t trust anybody, but I do trust my therapist. I’ve been seeing her for probably six (6) years and I feel I can tell her anything. Why not? She gets paid to listen. And I don’t worry about her judging me. Just giving me super advice and sharing great coping skills that can replace the ones that no longer serve me.
I also started seeing this PE therapist about a month ago. It’s been a struggle, because it’s bubbling things to the surface. But I am trusting the process and living in hope that this PE therapy will be effective.
And lastly, I admire anybody that can put up with my moodiness, which includes a relationship. But I don’t see that in the cards for any time in the near future. So, I’ll just stick with my therapist for now.
Write about a time when you didn’t take action but wish you had. What would you do differently?
I was 18 years old and going to a local Technical College. It was in the middle of my home town, I was on my way to pick my little girl up from Granzy’s house on my way home from the college. I could hear the train, but I could not see it as there was a huge building right up to the tracks. Crossing did not have guards. And well, since I couldn’t see the train I just followed the car ahead of me over the tracks. They made it, I did not. The train was behind the building and I just didn’t get out of the way fast enough. It hit my rear end, swinging the car around into the opposite direction.
I know I always say this. But to make a long story short, the only injury I sustained that day was the breakdown of my ego.
A few days later I was in school. A Soo Line RR spokesperson came to the school to talk to me. We met in a conference room after I was called out of class.
He had with him a briefcase, which he sat on the table and pulled out a typewriter and personal business check. He asked, “How can we make this right today?”.
Me, being the stupid, naive, young person that I was, I just cried about my car.
The man asked me, “So, how much did you pay for the car?”.
‘$250’ I sobbed. I had no car. I’m even sure whose vehicle I used temporarily until I could get a different one.,
The man opened his suitcase and took out a typewriter and a blank check from SooLineRR. He typed me a check for $250 and I never heard from him again. I’m assuming cashing that check was the agreement we needed.
Oh, if only I was smarter…..Guards arms were finally put on that crossing, within one or two(2) months of my accident.
I’m a wonderer of the universe and what makes it tick. I enjoy talking about God and the wonderful things he does, that people may not even notice. But I do. I notice his miracles every day in nature. I believe he’s speaking when the wind blows. I notice the difference in the seasons by the sounds of the wind through the trees.
Nature tells us everything we need to know about God. We are small on this planet, just mere ants. Though God has given us this universe to exist. And as fast as he gives it to us he can also take it away from us.
I also believe we are all given special gifts or talents made specifically for each one of us. It’s up to us to recognize them and utilize them for the betterment of the world.
What you do does make a difference in this world, whether you believe it or not. We are all connected as one body with many parts. If we all had the same talents we would not have a complete body. It speaks of this metaphor in the Bible. And as it says, makes complete sense (Romans12:4-5, 1 Corinthians 12:12-27, Ephesians 4:16).
I never paid attention to politics, until Trump ran for president the first time in 2016.
I may get a lot of haters for this post, but I like Trump. He’s different. And that’s what makes him set apart from any president we have ever had. He may be outspoken, but that’s one thing I like about him. He’s not afraid to tell the truth to people, even if it hurts, or may not be politically correct. He has a very good head on his shoulders when it comes to business and making deals. And the bottom line is he truly cares about America and our safety.
He gets a terrible rap from main stream media, whom actually tells complete lies about him, mostly to put fear in the people. When people panic bad things happen. And it’s the media playing the games.
President Trump has accomplished more in one year than Biden or any president has accomplished in such a short period of time. And I believe if people can patiently wait out the high prices they will come down naturally once this excursion with Iran is over.
People are upset at him for shaking that tree too. But people are refusing to understand, that for the safety of the entire world, we cannot allow Iran to continue terrorizing like they have been for 47 years. In the past we’ve just thrown money at them to keep them away. But it’s time to put an end to the fear.
And of course I pray for our military. But we need to remember what exactly the military does. They serve and protect the country. That is the career they chose, knowing full well of the possible dangers. It’s what they signed up for. And of course, we don’t want anybody to be hurt. But remember, it’s their job. Just like the police and secret service. And Trump wants them paid well for the service they do for the entire country. People just have no gratitude for our military. And that is upsetting. Instead of arguing about the war why don’t we show our troops our love and support? They are only doing their job.
I could go on about this subject, but I’m probably going to lose followers for this already so I will end it here.
Bobber and I have really connected. He comes and lays by me now and looks for some loving on occasion. He likes attention when I’m home. Especially since it seems like I’m not home often enough. But I am. I only go to work a few hours a week. It just feels long because I don’t get home to at least 5:30. But if I’ve got errands to run it can get as late as 6:30pm. That’s about what Bobber will tolerate before he starts trouble in the house.
Yes, this cat is messy when I’m not around to keep him in line. I can always tell if I’ve been gone too long for his liking. My spheres all end up rolling around on the floor. I still have yet to find two (2).
Through all this complaining though, I love Bobber and won’t give him up for nothing. We both have our understandings of each other and we respect that. He is a wonderful emotional support pet. When I cry he pays attention. He tries to make me feel better. Sometimes he just sits by me and watches. Which I don’t mind at all. He looks at me in a way that I see love and compassion and empathy from his eyes as he sits near and watches me.
I’ve been watching a lot of YouTube on TV. Things about cats; like “Why your cat does this….” Or “13 signs your cat loves you”, etc. Things of that nature. I’m learning a lot more than I ever knew about cats.
For example: I think Bobber has a nervous tick, that he may do when he’s bored or anxious. That would be his constant grooming. I know cats like to groom themselves. But Bobber is obsessive. He’s always grooming. They say to stop the constant grooming is to give them something to do when you’re gone to keep them busy for a while and give them enough attention when you get home.
I live in a studio apartment. We know what a studio apartment consists of, and that’s not enough room for Bobber. He gets bored.
I specifically refer to 1 Corinthians 13. I feel this is my best direction in life. To live according to God’s direction on HOW to love people. I try my best to follow it, though
I am a sinner just like everybody else. I make mistakes. When I recognize a sin in my own life I try to atone for it and do better. That’s all we can do. And that’s all that God expects of us.
What is your favorite holiday? Why is it your favorite?
July 4th is my favorite holiday, because it’s normally really hot. And I can float around in the pool. And of course, I love really good fireworks 🧨 The state fair are the best fireworks I have seen. I haven’t seen them there on the Fourth of July, but I see them every time I go to a concert down there during state fair season (which, I know, is not July 4th). But I still count them as the best so far.
I love morning hours, especially in the summer time when it starts getting light at 4am.
I used to sit outside with my coffee and cigarettes and listen to the birds wake up and watch the sunrise.
Now, I vape nicotine instead with my coffee. It doesn’t feel the same, but I’m not going back to cigarettes. It’s been since August of 2023. And I know vaping is no better than, but it’s the best I can do at this time that is not offensive.
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I learned something interesting about myself this past week. My relapse made me very sick. So sick I quit the alcohol and Maryjane/vapes. I ended up sick for a week. So sick there were moments I was afraid I was going to die in my sleep.
This lasted a week. I kept thinking it was from the meth. The meth had poisoned me. I was having panic attacks and anxiety about this.
Anyway, Monday I was finally well enough to go into the doctor and get some lab work done.
Long story short, I leaned from my lab results that I was going through Alcohol withdrawals, according to Chat GPT (I had to ask her what all the codes meant).
I never would have guessed that 2-3 glasses of wine before bed would cause that.
Until I really thought about it. I was using wine as a way to get sleep. As a medication.
So, I haven’t drank in over a week. I’d have to look back. But I don’t want to. I just want to forage ahead. Looking back is discouraging. Looking forward is adventurous.
I called my doctor and asked her if she could give me something for the cravings. I won’t lie, I think about it when I get home from work, on my own time. It was the only way I knew how to just let sh*t go.
My anxiety is pretty crippling. That’s the only way I know how to talk to people. At least used to. Prior to 2023 I had probably 10 years off alcohol. Maybe more. I started drinking after the Maryjane vapes quit working for me. Until I had a glass or two (2) of wine.
I’m still on the fence about the Maryjane. I don’t see anything wrong with smoking some flower once in awhile.
But I know what they’d say in NA. I’ve been to several online. I found this very extensive list of Online NA meetings, any hour of any day. I’ve been trying to go to two (2) a day and it’s been kind of fun. I can’t see who’s all in it, unless they talk. I never know how many there are for sure. And they’re from all over. I’m not a tech person, I just learned how to put a picture on zoom instead of looking at my ugly face.
Wow, 😮 that sounded …..negative. I don’t know where that came from.
Long story short, I’m again new in recovery. I honestly didn’t think that wine would cause alcohol withdrawals. Maybe I was drinking more than I thought 💭 . Whatever the case doesn’t matter. I know God saved my life once again from another possible downhill spiral, and I am grateful He spared meany more agony.
I received a comment bashing me for calling my website “The Wiccan Christian”. Or even just calling myself a Wiccan Christian. I thought I had explained my choice of wording in my “about me” section. But let me explain again.
First off, I don’t feel it’s necessary for anybody to agree or believe what I believe. I call myself a Wiccan Christian mainly because I believe God is in nature. God is everywhere. I like making alters for God, more like Old Testament style. Offering whatever it is I put on the alter. It’s my way of saying thank you. It’s my way of removing bad habits, saying goodbye to something, etc. I make alters for several reasons. I burn candles and incense. I could go on and on about things I do that are not Christian approved.
I don’t pray to God’s or Goddesses. I pray to God, period, and it is because of Jesus’s sacrifice that I can do that.
I believe in the Bible and Jesus’s teachings. I believe Jesus died on the cross for my sins. And I feel this belief makes me right with God.
I atone for my sins and try to do better as God points them out to me.
You can call it whatever you want, it’s all the same terminology, just spoken in different languages.
I was raised a Catholic. I left the catholic religion as I felt it was telling me I was doomed no matter what.
I would call myself a straight Christian, which I have in the past. But I’m at a point in my life where I have found Christian’s to be hypocritical and judgmental. Because of that I’m embarrassed to put myself into that category.
I believe in the Bible and what it says. Everything. And I try my best to live by the words in 1 Corinthians 13. It’s all about loving each other the right way.
And honestly, if you don’t like the name of my blog, or my posts, just don’t read it. It’s that simple.
I could go on and on about this stuff, but why? I am who I am. And if I am wrong God will reveal it to me.
I have seen a lot of stuff in this world that others have not, or are still blind to. I’ve been on both sides of the fence of good and evil. I would call myself a Christian if I trusted Christianity. But like I said I see the hypocrisy and false pride. I just can’t call myself a Christian because it embarrasses me to be put in that category. That’s where I am today, and may God open my eyes if there is a need.
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