The Wiccan Christian

I woke up to an interesting text this morning. It was “Joe”, telling me not to contact him anymore and that he’s blocking me.

What prompted this? I caught him in a lie. I don’t know why he lied. I just know he lied. And since I now have proof of what kind of person he can be, it answers all my questions.

I think “Joe” is a person with classic narcissistic personality disorder. I never knew how to recognize it before, until I posted about some of my experiences in this blog and received a very kind comment. Something about that comment woke me up. So I started paying more attention to things. And yes, looking back I am recognizing classics signs of NPD.

Gaslighting was a perfect word for it. I needed somebody else to tell me and confirm what I already suspected. But couldn’t prove.

Anyway, that’s history now and I can move through life accordingly without hesitation.

Does it bother me to receive a text like that? Of course it does. But it also comes as a relief. I did or do love him and was prepared to go to battle for him with my friends and family. I knew if I continued to hang around him I might be faced with an ultimatum that I was seriously preparing for. He fixed the whole problem for me.

I knew there was a reason why I was holding back from answering his relationship question. Maybe even procrastinating on an answer too. Because I really do love him…. Or I should say the version of him he showed me. Now I know, it was all fake.