The Wiccan Christian

I feel this question goes along with another question I answered about religion.

I need a lot of calm time in my life. I meditate a lot. It’s the only thing I have found that stops me from trying to predict the future in my head. Over and over. Yes, I can be a ruminator.

Yes, I have bipolar disorder type 2. I’m more depressed than I am “manic”. I probably get manic twice a year. Especially in the spring/summer time. But it really only lasts a week. And I’ve been starting to identify beginning symptoms, so we can do something different before I go off the rails into mania. I’m not saying mania is bad, to a point. What’s makes it bad is the symptoms. Overspending #1 for me. When I start spending money that I can’t afford to spend, that’s usually my first indicator. So then we increase my Olanzapine 2.5 mg higher for the spring/summer.

If we don’t catch the mania symptoms on time it’ll run its course, crash and burn. And people will be left picking up the pieces.

Anyway, back to the point. I have chronic anxiety to go with the bipolar. My anxiety can be so bad at times all I can do is listen to meditation music, alone, to relax (well, Bobber’s invited all the time).

I don’t feel people give incense a chance. I hear a lot of people gripe about the smell. When I first started using incense the aroma did seem a bit strong at first. But as I continue to burn it my nostrils get used to the smell and I find the smells are really relaxing. I love incense. I have five favorites: Dragons Blood, Lavender, Copal, Panto Salo and White Sage. I prefer the cones over the sticks. If you want to know what each scent is good for you can always go ahead and use chatGPT (yes-I’m addicted to her. She’s so smart lady).

Sorry, I keep getting off topic. It is imperative that I get an adequate amount of alone time each day. Some people may call that selfish, but I am 56 years old. I have a right to be selfish for once. To take of myself.

In saying that, I think it’s vital that each person takes a little time each day for yourself. Try sitting in silence for 5-10 minutes. Actually, take your shoes off and go find a tree to put your arms around with your feet touching the roots. Imagine a butterfly calmly swinging by you.

I like to try to be a good visionary.