The Wiccan Christian

I’ve had a hard time sleeping the past three nights. My mind won’t stop thinking. That is/was one of the reasons I took medical cannabis. But I haven’t had any in about a week. I’ve kind of lost interest in it. It wasn’t working as well as it did when I first started it four (4) years ago.

My therapist warned me I’d probably have a hard time sleeping without it now for a while. She was right.

I decided to stop because I’ve been tired of being broke as soon as I get paid.

I also quit drinking wine. I’ll admit I was a wine drinker for about three (3) years. Again, this routine got old. So I’ve cut that out too. I’ve probably put my body out of wack doing this. But time has a habit of making many things better.

I do find it interesting that I relapsed on the methamphetamine after I quit the cannabis and the wine. But I have determined that I really don’t like or need it like I imagined I did. I actually got bored with it quite quickly. So I haven’t really had any intense cravings I thought I would.

I’ve been going to online NA meetings lately. Mostly because I like to isolate, and my therapist, as well as my family tell me to get out of the house and get busy doing something. I was quite surprised to find a list of online NA meetings. And it was an exceptionally long list; The top of every hour of every day. As a matter of fact I will probably check one out when I’m done with this.

Also with my families encouragement I’ve decided I’m going to make a flower garden outside my apartment. A friend of mine gave me a three tiered plant holder, so I know I’ll use that. The only trick I’m going to have to deal with is the rubbish and rocks I’ve got to get through to even plant a garden. My first available, nice weekend, I’m going to work on it. Or try anyway. My brother was able to get my shepherd hook through the rock, so that does sound promising.

My lack of appetite has been a concern to a few people. Not to me, but to my therapist and my daughter. I just do not have an appetite, except during the middle of the night. But I have stopped the overnight eating after I ate a bar of soap in my sleep! 😂 I can’t help but wonder what prompted me to pick soap? I did call the specialist the next day to in form them of the incident. They decided I need to do another sleep study. I thought to myself, ‘Here we go again.

After the soap incident I started forcing myself to eat something during the day. This does seem to have helped. I haven’t been eating in the middle of the night much at all lately.

I had to make a really hard decision about work today. The client that I am currently working with likes to sleep till noon or 1pm. This makes it really difficult to do my job. She has three (3) dogs….well, had I should say. Two of them just recently went to an adoption program.

I used to be a very early morning person when I smoked cigarettes. Cigarettes and morning coffee always tasted so yummy.

But I’ve got to end this post and hopefully get it posted before I have to go to the store.

Haha 🤣 that last sentence was funny to me.

I hope everybody has another excellent day! And I will post my email address again so people always know I welcome conversation.

763-213-5567

Peace out ☮️ I am falling asleep 😴

I’m not sure if I’m in a good enough spot, but I’m